Well its been a long time since I last blogged, and once again I notice that I havnt had any visitors to my site, but I dont mind, I still love to blog.   Well all my front and back garden is finally done, gosh it was hard work, but without my mans help I certainly wouldnt have had it looking the way it is, the bushes I planted years ago are now in view, how they have grown, it makes gardening all worth while to see the beauty of gods creation.  

I have also been busy with a new site I found, its brillient and designed to write anything you want without worrying if anyone will know who you are, its called the Experienced project and I would strongly recomend it to anyone who feels the need to write about their life experiences, even just to take a look is worth it, if anyone does read my blog and goes to this wonderful site, then please leave me a comment to let me know what you think.

I have cut down on my drinking of alcohol and speed taking so much that I am more normal now then ever, am not saying its been easy but I take every day as it comes and ask for the lords blessing to give me new strenth each new day.   I still have a mountain to climb, I am far from reaching the top, but am trying to climb a step or two every day and I find my life is becoming less cluttered, I look back to how I was feeling a few months ago and never relised how much misery I was in, but thats all changing now and I must remind myself not to be so hard on judging myself for the things that I have done wrong, its about putting things right that count and thats what I am trying to do.  My home life with my children couldnt be any better, my little one has well and truley settled into secondary school now and my older daughter is well into her studies at her new colleage, I miss my son so much as I think I said before he has been given a life sentance for attempted murder, but we have all accepted that now and we must move forward.

I still have to write more on my website as that is where my deep and dark storys are kept, but I sometimes find it so hard to bring the thoughts back in my mind that I choose to ignore them, or put of writing till a later date, but I know this is un healthy and is something I must do, so am going to stop blogging now and go straight to my web page.   God bless you all.